Monday, April 21, 2014
Honored and Surprised
It's a new day, a new week. The sun is shining. The weather is far removed from the week past. I woke this morning to a wonderful surprise. There were COMMENTS on my new, fledgling blog. Suddenly, I was wide awake. I knew the culprit. He'd already informed me something was going on. Alex J. Cavanaugh strikes again! His blog is a treasure trove of music and movie knowledge not to mention a veritable Who's Who of the blog world. His minions roam the Interwebs and give him information on all the newly published authors, those who have started new blogs, those who are struggling and those who are celebrating. He claims he doesn't have clones but, seriously, who believes that?
I know many of you who are now reading this post found me thanks to Alex. THANK YOU for stopping by! There's a bit of a background here I have wanted to share for a while but, until now, the time hasn't been right.
I started my first blog back in 2007. It was sparse but it was mine. Slowly, I added other blogs, changed the titles, changed the addresses. You see, I've spent a LONG time searching for my place in this world and my blogs have served as a sort of public wardrobe for my inner wanderings. That's why I stopped blogging for so long. When I graduated from college last May, I thought I had the answers. Sad, isn't it? A 30-something year old thinking they know everything there is to know about themselves? I blogged but my heart wasn't in it. I felt pressured, pushed by the "powers that be" (whoever the heck they are) to DO something, to BE something, to MAKE something happen. There's nothing wrong with any of those things, but for me, at that particular moment, it just wasn't going to work.
So I left. I shut down, closed shop, right before the biggest blog challenge of the year. The A-Z Challenge has been going strong since April 01 and I bowed out. It was a HARD decision to make. I have made so many great friendships during the 6 years I've been blogging. I didn't want to lose them but I knew if I didn't leave, I'd just keep lying to myself and everyone around.
And after I left, something wonderful happened.
I stopped striving. I stopped looking for "myself" and became myself. I spent weeks and months looking inward and praying and things began to happen. Not because I was doing anything but because I WAS. I'm not sure if that makes sense but, as they say, God works in mysterious ways. Do I have all the answers? Of course not, but I'm confident that THIS is where I belong. THIS is where I've belonged all along. As the days and weeks go by, I look forward to sharing this space with you. I look forward to the projects that are in the works coming to fruition and the ideas I have fleshing themselves out. And I'm here to share it all with whoever decides to wander along with me on this crazy, marvelous, fantastic journey we call life.
Welcome. And thank you.