Another month, another chance to air our insecurities and offer encouragement to those in the writing realm. We all pay homage on this day to our fearless leader, Captain Ninja Alex (it was his idea to begin with!). Wander by the Insecure Writers Support Group page and get caught up, signed up, or just to find out what this marvelous group is all about :D Let the insecurities commence!
I'm not sure if what I'm currently dealing with is an insecurity or just good, old fashioned panic. I've been rather erratic in my writing since the start of summer. My work schedule went crazy and I'm still trying to settle into it. The lack of writing has nothing to do with a lack of ideas: there are two suitcases (literal, physical suitcases) filled with files and papers that hold outlines, ideas, and story notes. Frightening, I know. I could begin world domination tomorrow if any amount of paper and adjectives were required. No, lack of ideas is not the problem.
My biggest problem is time, or rather, time management. I'm in the midst of one personal project that requires a lot of time an energy. I have one manuscript that needs editing and one that needs starting. Then, of course, there are the usuals: work, family, home, life. I can't seem to get my time around them all. My off days consist of me walking in circles, flitting from one project to another, feeling guilty that I'm writing when I should be ____ (fill in the blank) and vice-a-verse. Relaxing consists of a cup of tea and my brain telling me that there are countless people in the world who find time to do it ALL: write, blog, run small businesses, manage 15 kids, two dogs and an army of cats. Seriously, folks, I find it a miracle if I can remember to water my tomatoes and keep the kitchen sink emptied on a daily basis!
So I have a question: HOW do you do it? You know who you are, those amazing creatures who seem to have it all together. I'm not stupid; I realize that no one has an ideal life and that writing does have to take a back seat some days. My frustration is that instead of hunkering down (there's a Southern term for you) and just digging into one project at a time, giving myself a good, old fashioned time limit for each one and, therefore, completing bits and chunks of multiple projects in a day, I fuss and fury over what I'm not doing while I'm doing something else. (Did that even make sense?)
Maybe I just answered my own question. Who knows. Bottom line: I freeze and don't do anything when I'm constantly worried about doing many things. No, I can't do it all, but I should be able to do SOMETHING, right?
Argh. There I go, over thinking again. Thanks for letting me vent this morning! Hope I'm not too depressing. Stress is a wonderful think, isn't it? (ha...ha...ha...)